Why Is It Different?
I wanted to dedicate this part to tell you what i mean by why it's different. Now i know you might not belive me and i understand my love, You aren't my first lover you know that and trust me it hurts to say cause im happy to be your first and hopefully only love, i never gave flowers to a girl like actually, never slept over at a girls house (tias house) never gave gifts like how i did, never put that much effort into anything, never had a new years kiss nor had a chance to celebrate it with my partner, never asked anyone to be my valentines or give a gift like how i did last year, i can keep saying example. The end point is that yes i know your not my first lover but understand in my eyes you are, The only one i love and the only one who loved me.
Time Apart, for now or forever?
When you left i felt like that's where everything went down, im honestly depressed i never got to fully hang out with you again my love, i know maybe this is a change that should happen i got too comfortable and i should've been doing more. I'm not asking you to just try again how it was, i'm asking for something new something better. I hope this showed you what i mean by how it's impossible to believe that 2 years forgotten like that and how it doesn't really matter to you and you moved on. I understand and maybe this will help or maybe i stayed up making this and checking it over for you not to look at it.
I do love you perla. I love you so much.
February 3 2026-